FrieAme AU where Friede's a paediatrician and Amethio's a terminally ill inpatient. Friede's in charge of Amethio's care and keeps telling himself not to get attached but oops Friede gets attached. So does Amethio. Contains main character death, obviously!

Thanks to my good friend for always contributing great ideas! <3

Friede not liking Gibeon because he thinks he's way too distant of a father and thus assumes Gibeon's emotionless and whatnot, but towards the end of Amethio's life, the two spend a bit more time together and Friede realises he was completely wrong

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Friede always thought Gibeon looked at his son indifferently and showed no emotion, but seeing Gibeon interact (awkwardly) with Amethio towards the end, Friede realises Gibeon actually looks... incredibly sad

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It's just that Gibeon's shut off all his emotions and all that fun stuff so Friede, who's not the best at reading people, figured the lack of emotion was because Gibeon didn't care, but it's the opposite -- the lack of emotion is because he does care. He cares far too much

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Friede's tried doing that, since he's dealt with many losses of patients over his career and it always pains him deeply, but he's unable to isolate his heart. He envies Gibeon for being able to separate himself from his grief

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(Obviously Gibeon is uh. Not exactly doing that and is in fact just bottling it all up which is... bad, but Friede still kinda jealous)

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Maybe the two talk about it after Amethio dies and Friede admits that he wishes he didn't have to feel as upset as he does, and he also says that it was different with Amethio and he hasn't felt this level of grief before, but if he was like Gibeon he might be able to cope a bit better

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Gibeon promptly tells Friede that he's being an idiot (in a much politer way) and that he should be proud of the fact that he still feels emotions after all this time.

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That it's nothing to be jealous of, because Gibeon thinks that he himself is merely a coward who has no idea how to actually cope and the only way he can keep going is to continuously ignore everything... but Gibeon doesn't know how much longer he can maintain that façade for

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Everything about this makes me upset (but in a good way). Ame was loved... very much.

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He was! It's not his fault his dad is hopeless lmao

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Also adjacent to this, but I've been thinking about Friede trying to convince Gibeon to take care of Ame a bit towards the end of his life by doing stuff like helping Frie wash Ame etc but Gibe's all "No I don't want to violate his privacy that's hardly appropriate" even though the only person who thinks that is Gibe

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It's good stuff. Frie is so good. He genuinely wants Ame to feel loved and cared for by his family at the end of his life... no wonder Ame fell for him.

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Gibe not realising it's a bit weird he never held Ame as a baby or bathed him etc (that's the mother's job, why would he, the father, ever do such things?)

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Sure thing man but now as a result, Ame either thinks his dad hates him or is scared of asking for love and reassurance!

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Gibe: I've never... bathed him before
Frie: What
Gibe: Why would I? His mother took care of that
Frie: Like... Not even once?
Gibe: No
Frie: Er, forgive me for being rude, but... Did you... Did you ever hold him?
Gibe:
Gibe: Does that matter?
Frie: Immensely!

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Frie then double-checks with Spi's who's like "I mean I don't really remember but neither of us ever had much to do with him. I can't imagine he'd have been involved in childcare at all lol" and Frie just finds that... sad, really

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Like, yeah, sure, the mother can raise the kids perfectly fine, but they're still Gibeon's children too. Frie reckons that's the cause of a lot of Ame's insecurities right there (like you said haha)

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It's so good and sad. Sometimes Ame doesn't know how to react to being touched and it's just....

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Frie being the first man who's ever touched Ame at all (not even in a sexual sense just like. In general)

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Yes. Ame is genuinely surprised by how warm his touch is. And how it feels reassuring for some reason. He wants more of it. (He would never ask. But he feels safe with Frie)

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Also Frie's the first person to give Ame a hug in like a decade

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Tfw Ame wants Frie to touch him both platonically and romantically-

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Ame is greedy but also Frie is the first person to care. Sure it's his job but he never knew being cared about felt like that...

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Yes, exactly! Ame initially dismisses his romantic feelings for Frie because he's just using him as a substitute parent (despite Frie being much younger than Ame's actual father but shush) but then he realises the romantic feelings are extremely upsetting (since he doesn't know what do do with them), whereas the platonic feelings are much less suffocating

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Ame wanting Frie to treat him gently and with kindness but also wanting Frie to wreck him-

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Why did they have to be patient and doctor-

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Oh don't worry, they both have major breakdowns over that! /s

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Ame being cute and wishing he was more grown up and not in a hospital and just generally okay so he could sweep Frie off his feet-

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He figures other people are fools for not seeing how good Frie is since as far as he knows, Frie is single.

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Frie saying something to Ame like "I know these are just about the worst possible circumstances, but even still, I'm glad I got to meet you and know you" and Ame who has hardly any energy left just... doesn't know how to respond except by crying

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Frie WILL find Ame in another life and they WILL be together.

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They will! They deserve it!