FrieAme AU where Friede's a paediatrician and Amethio's a terminally ill inpatient. Friede's in charge of Amethio's care and keeps telling himself not to get attached but oops Friede gets attached. So does Amethio.

Contains main character death, obviously!

Thanks to my good friend for always contributing great ideas! <3

Ame insisting on wearing his gloves the whole time he's in hospital... Nobody can understand why he won't take them off, and the staff try and assure him that the hospital is about as clean as you can get, but he won't listen to them
"[Me] Once Frie learns a little bit about Ame's home life he wonders if maybe he's got injuries on his hands... But that wouldn't make sense, since he's been there for several weeks, so any bruises etc would've faded.

Unless it's something permanent he's trying to hide..."
[Me] Frie doesn't want to push Ame into telling him, but he's a bit worried. Ame also won't let anyone wash his gloves.
[Me] Maybe one day while Frie's performing the usual tests he does on Ame, he ends up accidentally spilling some gel or something on one of Ame's gloves, and Ame immediately gets furious
"[Me] Ame: What're you doing?! Doctors aren't supposed to be clumsy! Do your job properly!
Frie: S-Sorry! Let's take it off, I'll go wash-
Ame: [Bats Frie's hand away] Do NOT touch me!
Frie: ...You're still doing that, huh?

Ame glares at Frie as he holds his hands against his chest. Ame then looks down at the glove to inspect it. It's rather sticky"
[Me] Ame makes a face as though he knows it needs to be washed. Frie sighs
"[Me] Frie: Look. Nobody's gonna judge your hands. If you've got scars or something--
Ame: That's not it. Stop making assumptions
Frie: Hooooo boy. Okay. But you're not gonna tell me
Ame: You're making assumptions again. You've never asked me about it
Frie: Beeeeeeecause I know you're just gonna refuse to tell me anything
Ame: ...
Frie: See?"
"[Me] Frie: If you're not hiding something, then surely it's fine to wash them, right?
Ame: No. It's not.
Frie: I can always wash them separately if that's what you're worried about...
Ame: ...
Ame: ...That's not...
Frie: Stop this. What's the problem? I'm here to help you, you know"
"[Me] Ame: You'll... You'll just laugh at me
Frie: I won't
Ame: ...
Frie: Can I guess?
Ame: Ugh. Fine.
Frie: Are they a gift from someone?
Ame: Not... exactly. But they... they weren't mine originally
Frie: Hm? Did you steal them, then?
Ame: .....Technically...
Frie: Why're you being so cagey?"
"[Me] Ame: ...
Frie: I won't tell anyone, so don't worry about getting in trouble or anything, yeah?
Ame: ...It's stupid. You'll laugh at me.
Frie: And I'm telling you that I won't"
"[Me] Ame: ...And what'll you do if I do tell you?
Frie: I'll figure out a way to clean the gel off with minimal damage, since that seems to be what you're worried about
Ame: ..."
"[Me] Frie: I'll then give them back to you. I don't plan on stealing them for myself. The only gloves I can wear are rubber ones lol
Ame: ...If you laugh at me, I'll kill you
Frie: Deal"
"[Me] Ame hesitates for a while. Frie can tell that he's struggling to figure out how to explain things. But that's okay. He can wait.

Eventually, Ame takes a deep breath and finally starts to talk"
"[Me] Ame: Do you... remember how I told you that my mother died several years ago?
Frie: Ah, yeah, I do. Did she get those for you?
Ame: No, it's not that kind of thing... Mostly"
"[Me] Frie: Mostly?
Ame: After my mother died, her family said that my brother and I could look through her belongings and choose things to take with us. I was too young to really be interested in anything, and I don't remember what my brother ended up picking"
[Me] Ame: We were at her house, which I hadn't visited since the last time I saw her alive, and I didn't quite understand what was going on, so I went wandering... I'm not sure if I thought I'd find her somewhere or if I just wanted to get away from everyone else...
[Redacted] Are they his mother's gloves-
"[Me] Ame: I ended up in her bedroom. Nothing had been removed from it, as far as I could tell, and her things were how she'd left them. Her makeup was still sitting out on her dresser.
Ame: And there were some clothes still laid out on the bed. I think there was a dress... It looked kind of fancy. Maybe she'd had a date that night."
"[Me] Ame: Obviously I wouldn't get away with taking any of her clothes with me, but... next to the dress, there were a pair of gloves. I'd seen Mother wear them before, usually if we were going out for dinner. She always looked really elegant in them.
Ame: I have no idea why the thought occurred to me, but in that moment I just... felt the urge to take them..."
"[Me] Ame: My hands were too small at the time for the gloves to fit, but that wasn't the point. I just wanted something of Mother's. And she'd... she'd held my hands with those gloves...
Ame: I didn't really plan on wearing them, but once I got to high school, I found that everything was way too filthy and I hated directly touching things used by other people"
[Me] Ame: I think I just... randomly remembered that I'd stowed the gloves away in a drawer somewhere in my room. And it had been long enough that nobody would remember the gloves as being my mother's... So... I figured it would be okay to wear them...
"[Me] Ame: But when I put them on, they were... they were almost too small. Had they shrunk over the years? I wondered if they'd somehow lost their elasticity being shut away...
Ame: M-My hands... couldn't be bigger than Mother's... She was always holding them, and... and they were much bigger than mine... She could fit mine in hers easily..."
[Me] Ame: But then I realised it had already been 5 years by then... So... I guess at some point, I'd just... gotten bigger than her...
[Me] Frie just sits there. He has no idea what to say. He can't imagine being a small(ish?) child trying to come to terms with a parent's death... Being made to pick out a memento from their belongings... None of that would make sense to a child
"[Me] Frie: Alright. I'll ask Murdock what the best way to gently wash them is. That way, they won't get damaged. But... have you washed them before?
Ame: I always just... hand-washed them if they got dirty. Just... very gently. I'm sure there are better ways, but I couldn't exactly ask..."
"[Me] Frie finishes up his tasks for the time being and leaves Ame so that he can go and talk to Murdock.

What Ame can't believe is that Frie didn't judge him at all. He didn't make fun of him. But he didn't praise him, either.

Maybe... Maybe Ame can trust Frie. Just a little bit"
[Me] Ame gets the gloves back after Frie gets Murdock to wash them (Murdock does NOT trust Frie to do it properly) and they haven't been damaged at all. He's very relieved
"[Me] Also Spi would've taken some of his mother's jewellery I guess? Maybe a pair of boots that he thought she always looked pretty in too...

They'd be small things. The boys would be worried about Gibe taking their mementos from them. Gibe didn't get to choose anything for himself, after all..."
[Redacted] Ame is too precious....
"[Me] Frie explaining to Murdock that Ame (he mentions Ame by name so that Murdock knows just how serious the situation is!) wants his gloves washed but VERY DELICATLEY and they ABSOLUTELY cannot be damaged in ANY WAY

And Murdock takes one look at Frie and goes ""You're completely incapable of doing anything delicately"""
"[Me] Frie: Yeah but-
Mur: I'll wash them. I know he'll probably get mad, but it's better than you trying to wash them and things going horribly wrong
Frie: I wish you'd have a bit more faith in me...
Mur: I do. Just not in this particular area
Frie: Booo"
[Redacted] Frie thinking that Ame is very cute for this tbh
[Me] He does! Frie would think it's adorable and precious. He'd never say that to Ame directly though, even Frie knows that's going too far lol
[Me] Imo Frie doesn't have a good relationship with either of his parents, so Ame caring so much about his dead mother probably makes him feel kinda uncomfortable because he can't relate, but at the same time... he wishes he could care about them in that innocent child-like way...
[Redacted] Frie knows Ame well...!
[Me] (This is before Frie knows anything about Gibe beyond Gibe being somewhat abusive/neglectful so his opinion is going to change haha)
[Me] (As in, like, he realises that there's nothing for him to be jealous of with Ame's family situation)
[Redacted] Yeah given how abusive Gibe is : )
"[Me] Ame: [Tells Frie about how Gibe never interacts with him and when he does he's abusive]
Frie, whose parents split up when he was really really young and whose dad was never around at home: Oh maybe it's a good thing my father completely ignored me then"
[Me] (Neither situation is good, obviously)
"[Me] Now I'm thinking about Ame telling Spi about the gloves towards the end of his life when they're getting closer... Ame saying that nobody ever realised they were Mother's...

And Spi just smiles at him sadly and goes ""Did you really think I didn't realise?"""
"[Me] Ame: ...But you never said anything...
Spi: What was the point? I assumed you'd taken them that day we went through her things. If it means anything, I kinda... took something from elsewhere in the house, too, so..."
"[Me] Ame: R-Really? What did you...?
Spi: Do you remember that necklace she would wear frequently? The one with the topaz and aquamarine gems on it... It was sitting out in the bathroom, so I snuck it... I thought if I wore it secretly, it might help me be pretty and confident like Mother always was..."
"[Me] Ame: You've actually worn it?
Spi: I wore it to my high school graduation. Under the uniform. Because I know that if Mother had attended that event, she would've worn it herself...
Ame: ...
Spi: If I get married in the future, I might give it to my wife... That way, it can actually get some use out of it"
"[Me] Spi: I'll have to make sure I marry someone who looks good in that necklace, though! : )
Ame: Surely there are more important attributes to a person...
Spi: Of course. I was joking
Ame: Ah"
[Me] Ame's gotten to the stage where he's too mentally drained to detect sarcasm that well. Spi's naturally extremely sarcastic, and he forgets that Ame can't really cope with it anymore (not that he ever could, but it's different now), so he does apologise
"[Me] Spi: Mother... was a beautiful woman, wasn't she?
Ame: I'm... I'm not sure if I have a good judgement of that, but... She was definitely elegant. And... I always thought she looked nice...
Spi: You can call your own mother beautiful, you know. It's not weird
Ame: No, it's not that, I just..."
"[Me] Ame: I... I don't remember... what she looked like...
Spi: ...
Ame: I've been forgetting a lot of things... Some of them, sure, whatever, I don't care. But why... why would I forget Mother's face...? Why would I... W-Why can't I remember... what she looked like...?"
"[Me] Ame hides his face. Spi can tell he's crying. He doesn't really know what to say to calm Ame down

Spi still remembers Mother. He remembers how her face would light up whenever they visited her. He remembers her pretty features and her beautiful hair (that Spi was always envious of) and...

If he forgot Mother, he'd be heartbroken"
"[Me] Spi: You... You don't have control over any of that. I know that's not the point, but...
Ame: ...[Sob]
Spi: Besides, I'm sure Mother will be waiting to welcome you. So even if you don't remember what she looked like now, you'll... you'll get to be with her again, so...
Ame: [Sniff] Do you... seriously believe that...?"
"[Me] Ame: Is she... is she really going to be... w-waiting...?
Spi: She'll be there if you want her to be
Ame: ...But that's...
Spi: Ridiculous? Stupid? Probably. But I know that Mother would happily wait for you. If she's able to be there with you in any way, I'm positive she will be..."
"[Me] Ame starts sobbing loudly. Spi gently puts an arm around Ame's shoulders.

His brother's so... frail. And fragile. It's scary to touch him"
"[Me] Spi holds Ame like that for a while. As Ame's starting to calm himself down, Frie shows up to check on them

Frie: Uh
Spi: Not my fault this time. Well. It is. But it isn't
Frie: ...Did he upset you, Amethio?
Ame: [Shakes his head] N-No... It... It's not him...
Frie: I'll, uh, take your word for it, then"
[Redacted] Oh, Spi wanting to marry someone who would look good in his mother's necklace... cute..
[Redacted] Ame and Spi are cute and good...
[Me] Spi wants a wife who is pretty and elegant! (Lk is pretty, she's a bit too clumsy to be elegant but Spi realises he kinda prefers that anyway and elegance is overrated)
[Redacted] It's so cute
[Redacted] I wonder if Ame will tell Spi to take the gloves after he dies
"[Me] Ame would beat himself up over forgetting what his mother looked like. He knows they don't have any photos of her either.

Even though he knows he's forgetting a lot of things and doesn't remember most of his childhood anymore, Ame still can't accept that he's forgotten the face of someone so important to him"
[Me] Also I think Ame would give the gloves to Frie... Spi already has his own mementos, but Ame wants to give Frie something and at least the gloves don't go to waste if they're not used by Frie. It doesn't matter if they just sit there
"[Me] Though maybe Ame initially asks Spi if he wants the gloves and Spi says something like ""I don't really need anything else of Mother's. And besides, shouldn't to be giving such an important thing to someone you love? Like your doctor?""

Ame feels weird giving Frie his dead mother's gloves but Spi assures him that Frie won't care about that side of it"
[Redacted] Oh that's kind of cute... Frie will never wear them but he'll keep them forever to remember Ame...
[Me] Yeah, that's what Ame hopes! He has nothing of his own he really wants to give Frie, but at least the gloves are something Frie can keep around that wouldn't look suspicious to anyone...
[Redacted] I want Frie to kiss his hand while he has a glove on... (I really like hand kisses)
"[Me] Ooooh yes! He would! Maybe later on when he washes the gloves again and Ame's too weak to put them on himself anymore...

Ame: Really?
Frie: Yeah. I'm not washing the kiss off, by the way
Ame: Gross. Just kiss me normally...
Frie: [Kisses Ame's hands again] This is a normal kiss : )
Ame: ...
Frie: Where did you mean? On your forehead? Your cheeks?"
"[Me] Ame: Y-You know where...
Frie: Nope. Tell me : )
Ame: [Blushes] On... On my lips...
Frie: : )

Frie then gives Ame a proper kiss"
[Redacted] Why are they so cute (even though Frie is doing lots of shady shit by kissing him technically but)
[Me] Ame wants the kisses! Frie wouldn't dare kiss him otherwise! (He'd think about it and he'd want to but he's sensible, so...)
[Redacted] Now I'm thinking about Ame (in any AU in general, not just this one) playing on his charming points and being like "you won't kiss me... : ( so you hate me after all... even though I love you..." and guilt tripping Frie to get the kisses he wants <3
[Me] dsgjkhsk Oh he absolutely would... Especially in this AU once he's a bit weaker (but still mentally aware enough to purposefully manipulate Frie into kissing him lmao)
[Redacted] Frie... do you hate me? : '(
"[Me] Frie: Alright alright I'm sorry [Kisses Ame a lot]
Ame: That's not enough... Touch me...
Frie: Okay hold on kiddo you're hooked up to machines that monitor your heart rate and all that, if I did anything sexual with you they'd start screaming at me, so like, I'd rather not
Ame: ...You can detach them, right?
Frie: ..."
"[Me] Ame: Friede... You know how lonely I am...
Frie: Quit it. Amethio would never admit that he's lonely
Ame: Huh. So you do pay attention to me, then
Frie: Uhhhh that's kinda my job"
[Me] Ame's annoyed Frie saw through his act but he's also glad that Frie knows him well enough to be able to tell he's playing up
[Redacted] I love it so much <3
[Redacted] Ame would be a little menace if he played up stuff like that all the time...
[Me] Ame acting all dere and uwu and Frie plays along with it a little bit but then Ame starts going "Oh no I'm so saaad and lonelyyy and I'm dying please hold me I just want to feel the embrace of the only person I trust in this cold, cruel world" and Frie's like "I prefer it when you're telling me to eat a bag of dicks"
[Redacted] It's so cute though.... Ame feeling comfortable enough around Frie to act like a brat like that...
"[Me] Those are Ame's true feelings though... He does want Frie to hold him... Frie is the only person he trusts...

But he knows Frie, like, can't exactly be intimate with him easily in the hospital. Which is why he keeps trying to guilt Frie. Ame thinks it's fun seeing someone like Frie get flustered and seriously contemplate risking his career for him..."
[Redacted] It shows that Ame means that much to Frie that he is willing to reciprocate on some level like that!
[Redacted] Frie telling Ame he is cute when he acts like that <3
[Me] Yes! Ame understands why Frie won't touch him etc but he also just... he wants to be important to someone. So he pushes things. Frie plays along with it because he knows Ame's being really brave by opening up to him so much, but unfortunately, Frie's sensible (at most he can kiss him and tell him he's cute)
[Redacted] I hope Ame understands... hope it means the world to him that Frie is kissing him despite all the dangers that come with it.
[Me] He does! He knows Frie can't risk it. He's both a bit sad that Frie can't fully reciprocate his feelings in a physical way, but he's also happy that Frie's willing to stand his ground and not easily give in... Ame likes that about Frie. He's stubborn and defiant. He's not a pushover
[Me] Ame wishes he could be like that. That he could have the strength to stand up to others in the same way... All he's ever done his whole life is be pushed around by Spi and ignored by Gibe, and when Gibe punishes him, Ame's always been too scared to retaliate
[Me] The only times he's actually fought people was when he was first hospitalised and he tried to repeatedly escape, but that was because he knew Gibe would be furious at him for ending up in the hospital, and he wanted to get home before Gibe found out...
[Redacted] Aww... Ame is so cute... I am imagining him telling that to Frie. That he admires that part about him and wishes he could be strong like him.
[Redacted] Ame being pushed around by Spi sounds great. His bro bullied him...
[Me] Spi bullied him, Gibe abused him (and ignored him)... Spi's bullying probably stopped once Spi got older and had no time for Ame anymore though
[Me] Also yes, I want Ame to tell him! Maybe he writes it in his letter to Frie, since he'd be too shy to say it out loud
[Redacted] He is so cute... Ame wanting to grow up like Frie...
[Redacted] Hoping Spi feels terrible about the bullying
[Me] Spi does, especially after Ame gets sick! He'll apologise a lot when they finally open up to each other...
[Me] Ame can't exactly forgive him, but he knows Spi truly regrets it
[Redacted] I wonder how Spi bullied him? Just ignoring him? I wonder if part of it was Spi seeing Gibe abuse Ame so that influenced his behavior...
[Me] This just popped into my head but: Spi's jealous that Ame looks more like Mother than he does, so he bullies Ame about his appearance and looks and whatnot and gives Ame a whole lotta complexes about his body shape and his face... Makes Ame incredibly self-conscious about his height and his weight etc...
[Me] Spi does this while he's going through puberty and not coping with the changes to his body, so he takes things out on Ame. Spi always wanted to be pretty and elegant like Mother, so why... why is his body not letting him do that? Why is Ame the one who gets to have the features Spi desires?
[Redacted] "You look like a girl" in a derogatory way...
"[Me] YES! Spi making fun of Ame for being cute and feminine etc

So when Frie calls him cute the first time Ame assumes he's being insulted and lashes out, but Frie's like ""I mean it in a good way though"" and Ame cannot compute"
[Redacted] Ame is super cute! It's nothing to be ashamed of!
[Redacted] Frie helps him love his features...
"[Me] Frie trying to explain that to him... That he's beautiful and it's a good thing and he should be proud of the way he looks...

Frie doesn't understand why Ame's so self-conscious. Ame won't tell him the reason"
[Me] For some reason I can see Ame being willing to tell Frie about how Gibe treated him, but when it comes to Spi's bullying, he finds it much, much harder
[Me] Maybe it's because to Ame, the Spi stuff is much more personal. While Gibe's abuse was indeed targeted (telling Ame he's a disgrace to the family etc), Spi's insults hurt Ame in a different way...
"[Redacted] Ame really willing to tell his whole life story to Frie huh.

And yeah. Maybe because Spi stopped bullying him? Because it was a long time ago? Because it shouldn't matter?"
[Me] Spi probably said some really horrible things, too. Maybe he even told Ame he should die. Sure, Gibe said it would be better if he never existed, but to Ame, that's different than "You know what you should do? Jump off a roof"
[Redacted] Oh no... everyone was so mean to Ame...
[Redacted] Ame wondering if he is such a horrible person that his own dad wishes he never existed and that his bro told him to jump off a roof
[Me] : )
[Redacted] Something must be wrong with him
[Me] I'm imagining Ame having a breakdown in hospital because talking to Frie about Gibe's abuse just reminds him of how Spi treated him too and it brings all those feelings back and it turns out they were right and Ame IS pathetic and useless and worthless and a waste of time and he can't do anything and all he does is cause trouble for people and-
[Redacted] Good. His own family hates him. Like what should he do
[Me] Ame thinking about Spi telling him to kill himself multiple times, and in the moment, it sounds tempting, but... Ame can't bring himself to do it. Mother would be upset with him for hurting himself. He might not care about what Gibe or Spi would think, but Mother? Mother wouldn't want him doing something like that...
[Me] He also doesn't want Frie to be disappointed in him, either. He wants to spend more time with Frie. He can't really do that if he's dead
[Redacted] Spi probably doesn't even remember saying that to him lmao
[Redacted] But if Frie eventually learns from Ame that Spi told him that... he would be sad.
[Me] He wouldn't haha, I was thinking that Ame would bring it up to him during one of their convos and Spi's like "EXCUSE ME WHAT"
[Redacted] You should feel bad, you poor excuse for a brother!
"[Me] Ame: Do you... remember telling me to jump off a roof? To drown myself? To walk into traffic? To jump in front of a train?
Spi: H-Hold on uh. What.
Ame: You tried... to make me drink bleach once, too...
Spi: ...Um
Ame: You shaved my hair off, too. You forced me to eat cat food. You made me sleep outside in the cold one night..."
"[Me] Ame: Do you really... not remember any of that...?
Spi: ..................................I...
Spi: I... vaguely... I remember shaving your hair and shutting you outside, but... not the other things...
Spi: But couldn't you have just... come back in the house?
Ame: You tied me to a tree, so no, I couldn't
Spi: ...
Spi: ...
Spi: Oh"
[Redacted] Oh that's some pretty awful stuff he did.
[Me] Spi was going through some Real Shit but that's not an excuse to bully your brother like that--
[Redacted] And the fact he doesn't remember. Ame will not forgive him...
"[Me] Spi wouldn't even know how to apologise for it. He feels awful but he truly doesn't remember. He's sure there would've been other things he did, too.

No wonder Ame hates him..."
[Redacted] Now Ame grew strong enough to tell him to his face all these things and potentially admit that he will not forgive him for this because everything he said and did really hurt
"[Me] Spi: Have you... told your doctor about this?
Ame: No. I... I don't know how to... He'd probably think I was making it up...
Spi: Would you... like me to tell him?
Ame: Absolutely not. You don't even remember what you did. It makes no sense for you to do that
Spi: ...Yeah"
[Me] Yes! Ame saying to Spi that he can't forgive him even if they have gotten closer and Ame does understand that Spi was upset by Mother's death too but... there's no way he's EVER forgiving Spi... He still thinks he's ugly. He still hates his body. He still wishes he was dead
[Redacted] And Spi feels like shit and has to live with that : )
[Redacted] Ame is so strong!!
"[Me] Ame: I do... have a request
Spi: And that is?
Ame: Please don't... Please don't treat anyone else like that... If you ever find someone to be with, don't... don't make them hate themselves like you did with me...
Spi: ...Of course"
[Redacted] Spi will remember these words fortunately. Unlike everything else he did to Ame that he forgot.
[Me] Spi isn't sure why he forgot. He has no idea why he'd suddenly just... completely forget that he bullied his brother so badly
[Me] (It's trauma, but y'know, Spi won't be aware of that)
[Redacted] Ame took the brunt of Gibe and Spi's traumas lmao
[Me] He did indeed! This is what happens when rich men don't know that therapy exists I guess /s