đ»đCrush on youăïŒEnglish translation version
To celebrate my first anniversary as a Radio Apple fan, I translated the very first Radio Apple novel I wrote using a translator. (There may be some mistakes.) I hope you enjoy it!
Luciferâs morning began in the most wretched way imaginable. For some inexplicable reason, Alastor stood in the middle of his private chamber, right in front of him.
Unable to mask his irritation, Lucifer demanded, âWhy the hell are you in my room?â
âGood day, Your Majesty!â Alastor replied with a theatrical flourish, his lips curling into a sharp, playful grin. âIâm a deer-shaped entertainer from the futureâthe Radio Demon, at your service!â
âWhat did you just say? The future?â Luciferâs voice carried a mix of disbelief and exasperation.
âOh, yes, yes! A long journey indeedâfrom the future!â Alastor responded, his tone light and gleeful.
Lucifer fell silent, his eyes drifting to Alastorâs feet. There, faintly visible, were the remnants of a magic circle etched into the floor.
âOh my, did I catch you just waking up? My apologies,â Alastor said with mock contrition. âIt seems I canât quite choose the time of day from my end.â
Hearing this, Lucifer paused to consider. This didnât seem like a joke. Magic capable of temporarily sending someone to the past did, in fact, exist.
He addressed Alastor again. âAlastor.â
âYes, Your Majesty?â Alastor replied, tilting his head with a performerâs flair.
âIâm aware such magic exists,â Lucifer said coolly. âI donât know what youâre scheming, but Iâm afraid itâs a wasted effort. Coming to the past wonât accomplish anything.â
âAnd why might that be?â Alastor prompted, his voice teasing.
âThose who come from the future canât interfere with the past,â Lucifer explained. âMost wouldnât even be able to perceive you right now.â
This was a critical point.
The magic allowed travel to the past, but altering it was impossible. The past could not be changed. Only someone like Lucifer, once a seraph, could recognize a future traveler like Alastor.
Alastor responded with his usual breezy confidence. âOf course, of course! Iâm well aware. Youâre likely the only one who can see me here. No problem at allâmy purpose is to meet you.â
âIs that so? How fortunate for me,â Lucifer said, his brow furrowing with annoyance.
It might not trouble Alastor, but for Lucifer, this was an irritation to be dismissedâunless this fool had meddled with Charlie in the future. Then, heâd reduce him to ashes without hesitation.
âLucifer Morningstar,â Alastor continued, unfazed, âin the future, you and I are lovers.â
âWhat?â Lucifer stared, dumbfounded.
What was this idiot blabbering about? For someone who styled himself an entertainer, his sense of humor was utterly deplorable.
âComing to the past just to mock me?â Lucifer scoffed. âHas the future left you so idle your brainâs gone soft?â
âOh, hardly! I wouldnât travel back for something so trivial,â Alastor said with a shrug. âIt means something to me, you see.â With that, he began rummaging through the roomâs belongings as if he owned the place. âStanding around chatting wonât do. Shall I brew some tea?â
Alastor located the tea leaves with uncanny precisionâdespite never having been invited into this home before.
(Where did he even get that teacup from, damn it?)
âI thought Iâd lost that teapot, but here it is. Quite a surprise. I suppose I owe you thanks,â Lucifer muttered, glaring as Alastor calmly boiled water. He retrieved the teapot from a pile of rubber ducklings, pouring the tea with infuriating elegance.
Lucifer watched in silence. Nothing overtly strange occurred. Since Alastorâs presence was tied to Lucifer alone, he could interact with the environment as long as it didnât stray too far from Luciferâs daily routineâapparently bending the rules of non-interference.
âRejoice, Alastor,â Lucifer said sardonically. âYouâre far more the master of this house than I am.â
âWhy, thank you for the compliment, Your Majesty,â Alastor replied, offering the freshly brewed tea with a flourish.
Lucifer took it with a scowl, sipping reluctantly. To his chagrin, it was better than anything he could brew himselfâinfuriatingly so. He couldnât deny it: lovers or not, this future Alastor had clearly wormed his way deep into his life.
While tidying a mountain of chick-shaped trinkets amassed during a depressive spell, Lucifer fixed Alastor with a steady gaze. âSo, whatâs your real purpose?â
âWhat do you mean?â Alastor asked, feigning ignorance.
âDonât play dumb. You didnât come to the past just to play housekeeper,â Lucifer pressed.
âWell, I suppose not,â Alastor conceded, his tone deliberately vague.
His pretense of pondering was transparent. Magic that allowed travel to the past wasnât something anyone could wieldâotherwise, itâd be commonplace. In reality, its utility was limited, and only a rare few demons possessed the vast knowledge and power required to use it. Going to the past only forced one to witness unchangeable truths, leaving nothing but misery behind.
A sudden realization struck Lucifer mid-thought. Who had taught Alastor this magic? Could he even cast it himself? If not, who had? A wave of dread washed over him.
Interrupting his spiraling thoughts, Alastor spoke again. âIf I had to say⊠I wanted you to understand my love for you.â
âOh?â Luciferâs response was flat, unimpressed.
Undeterred, Alastor continued. âIâve always had my own feelings about our relationshipâenough to come back and confess to the past you directly. Even after we became lovers, I was stubborn for a long while. I hurt you deeply, and I regret it terribly.â
Lucifer raised an eyebrow. âIâm shocked. You, capable of caring for someone else?â
It sounded like a cheap romance dramaâtouching, perhaps, if Lucifer werenât the unwilling star. Heâd have changed the channel by now.
âIf I were my present self, I could express my love to you more honestly,â Alastor said, his gaze feverish. âI want to show you my love, Your Majesty, in my own way.â
His hand brushed Luciferâs shoulder gently. Normally, Lucifer wouldâve swatted it away with a snarlâdonât touch me like that, creepâbut something caught him off guard. Perhaps it was the absurdity of it all. Anger felt futile; he didnât bother shaking him off.
It was the first time, outside of his wife and daughter, that someone had touched him with such tenderness.
*
âCall me âAl,â Your Majesty?â Alastor ventured.
âNo,â Lucifer shot back. He had no intention of getting that chummy.
âFair enough,â Alastor said lightly, shrugging off his coat. He seemed reluctant to bare more skinâperhaps a preference for staying clothed. Lucifer didnât care enough to press the issue, leaving it to Alastorâs discretion. When Alastor requested he strip fully, Lucifer complied without fuss. Better than risking stained clothes.
âBottoming experience, Your Majesty?â Alastor asked with a sly grin.
âYou already know the answer,â Lucifer muttered, exasperated.
Alastorâs smirk widened. If they were lovers in the future, such intimacy was a given. A sigh escaped Luciferâs lipsâconvenient, really, since he had no desire to top this fool anyway.
Alastor produced a bottle of lotion from somewhere, applying it to Luciferâs skin with a considerate warmth that only deepened his irritation. âI thought weâd have some fun, savoring your fresh reactions from back in the day,â he teased.
âThanks for the thought,â Lucifer replied, dripping with sarcasm.
Heâd imagined Alastor as the type to ravage his partners without mercy. Yet here he was, prepping him with care? It was so unexpectedly gentle it pissed him off even more.
A soft moan escaped Lucifer as Alastorâs fingers slipped inside, probing slowly. It had been a while since anyone touched him like this, but it didnât hurt. Alastor clearly knew the basics. If it wasnât painful, Lucifer reasoned, he could let him carry onâheâd exhaust himself eventually. A little patience, and itâd be over.
As Lucifer mulled this over vaguely, Alastor continued his work with one hand while the other caressed his face tenderly, trailing kisses through his hair with faint, playful sounds. The kisses descendedâforehead, cheeks, neckâlight and ticklish.
Lucifer frowned. What was he playing at?
Then, a flicker of recognition stirred. The pattern of those kisses, the way he touched himâit felt familiar.
âYou like this, donât you?â Alastor murmured.
Forehead, nose, cheeks, neck, tracing the line to the back of his earâfeatherlight kisses raining down, teasing and relentless. It was a method Lucifer had once adored, a cherished intimacy from his time with Lilith that sent him soaring when passions ran high. A sacred memory, never to be replicated.
Alastor couldnât know this. He shouldnât know this. Lucifer had never spoken of it to anyoneâhis deepest vulnerability, exposed.
His eyes widened in shock. What the hell did you teach this bastard, future me?
Alastor didnât miss the way Luciferâs gaze faltered. His fingers withdrew, replaced swiftly by a tentacleâthicker, heavierâpushing inside. A sharp, sweet cry slipped from Luciferâs lips as the intrusion overwhelmed him.
âYou idiotâ!â he gasped, voice trembling.
Kisses continued to shower his face, soft and loving, while the tentacle below pressed deeper, relentless. Alastor wielded Luciferâs weaknesses against him, mimicking Lilithâs touch with eerie precision.
Heat flushed through his ears and back. The air felt cold against his skin.
âYouâre enjoying this,â Alastor observed, smug satisfaction in his tone.
Enjoying it? Me? Donât be absurdâŠ
But his body betrayed him, shuddering under the assault of pleasure.
âDonât think. Just surrender to me.â
Lilithâs words echoed in his mindâwords that once brought blissful oblivion.
âDonât think. Just surrender to me.â
Alastorâs voice overlaid the memory, yanking Lucifer back to reality.
âWhatâ?! How do youâstopâ!â he stammered, protests dissolving into pitiful whines as the tentacle continued its work.
This couldnât be realâa nightmare, surely. Yet here was Alastor, desecrating his dignity with the exact methods of his former wife.
Alastorâs eyes gleamed with intent. I know you. I know how you break.
âShameless,â Alastor taunted. âDoes it feel good no matter who does it?â
âYou bastardâdonâtâ!â Luciferâs furious retort was cut off as Alastorâs lips claimed his, tongue forcing its way in.
Pleasure and shock turned Luciferâs mind blank. His body convulsed, arching violently as climax ripped through him. When the kiss broke, a silvery thread glistened between their lips.
Panting, he rasped, âYou sealed my mouth, you ass. How was I supposed to say anything?â
In retaliation, he pressed a foot against Alastorâs groin, feeling the hardness there. Alastor was just as affectedâgood.
âIâm not running,â Alastor chuckled, unperturbed.
Lucifer clicked his tongue. Take off your damn pants, you dense idiot.
âIf you want me so badly, just do it,â he snapped.
âOh, no, Your Majesty,â Alastor corrected gently. âThatâs not what Iâm after.â
âWhat?â Lucifer frowned, confused.
âI want you to want me,â Alastor clarified. âI want to hear it from your lipsâthat you desire me.â
âSurrender to you?â Lucifer laughed bitterly. âTo the man trampling my memories and humiliating me?â
What a sadist.
âDonât be ridiculous,â he sneered. âYouâre the one at your limit. If you want to finish, do it. Or should I take over? Your little tentacle game must be boring you.â
âTempting,â Alastor mused, grinning, âbut no. I need to hear it from you.â
Rubbing his chin, Alastor observed Lucifer closely. His defiance was expected. Alastor could feel Luciferâs body yielding to the pleasure through the tentacle, even if his pride held firm. It was just a matter of ego now.
Inside, Alastor was elated. Perfect. More fun to toy with him.
âOh, Your Majesty,â he murmured. âYouâre magnificent.â
*
âIf youâre so stubborn, Iâll help you,â Alastor offered slyly. âIâll say the words, and you repeat. Simple enough for that pleasure-addled brain of yours.â
Lucifer froze.
With a snap of his fingers, Alastor summoned more tentacles, binding Luciferâs wrists.
âRepeat after me: âAl, please put it in.ââ
A jolt of pleasure surged through him as the tentacles moved, relentless. Alastor didnât rushâhe teased, drawing it out.
For Lucifer, that was the most maddening part.
âSay it, and Iâll make it easier,â Alastor cooed.
âStopâ!â Lucifer gasped, writhing.
The tentacles didnât relent. Their probing movements made Lucifer shudder.
He understood what was happeningâwhat Alastor was uncovering about his body, and what awaited him next.
âRepeat it.â
The tentacle struck his prostate. His body stiffened under the most intense sensation yet.
A sweet numbness pierced his core, melting his mind.
Fear gripped Lucifer. The pleasure was far more unbearable than heâd imagined.
If it got any better, he might lose all reasonâmight blurt out something he shouldnât.
Hesitantly, he glanced up at Alastor.
âI wonât stop,â Alastor said, smiling. âNot until you give in.â
âNot until you say it.â
His eyes narrowed, cold and resolute.
âYou sadisticâ!â Lucifer spat, but his curse dissolved into a cry as the tentacle pressed harder, pushing him over the edge again.
He realized then: Alastor had intended to torment him until he got what he wanted. For Lucifer, it was a death sentence.
A sharp cry escaped him as the tentacle bore down on his prostate, sending him into a light climax. His small frame jolted.
Panting through repeated peaks, he shot a resentful glance at Alastorâs trousers. Alastorâs erection strained harder than before, asserting itself painfully.
Yet Alastor himself wiped Luciferâs fluids from his fingers with infuriating calm.
âYouâre too weak for a battle of wills,â he remarked.
âShutâupâ!â Lucifer choked out between gasps, climax after climax eroding his resistance.
Alastorâs touch softened, tracing Luciferâs fingers lovingly, licking them with deliberate care. Even with the ring he cherished still on, Alastor lapped at his skin tenderly. A sweet shiver ran through Luciferâit was just his fingertips, yet it felt like his entire being was being caressed.
Alastor made sure Lucifer heard every sticky sound, every smack of his lips as he lavished his fingers with affection. While he pampered him gently above, he intensified the tentacles below, ensuring no part of Lucifer was neglected.
His ears flushed red under the relentless assault of pleasure. Lewd sounds filled the airâfrom above, from below.
His mouth felt empty. Noânot thereâhe wanted a kiss on his lips. His mouth opened and closed, yearning.
Alastor laughed at the sight. âGreedy, arenât you? But no. Thatâs your reward.â
Despair sank into Lucifer. Even this, Alastor mimicked from Lilith.
âWhyâagainâso fastâ!â he gasped, voice breaking.
Alastor watched him closely. Perhaps ten or fifteen minutes had passed in this contest of endurance. Lucifer was breathless, while Alastor gazed at him with the same cool expression.
His lower body, ravaged by Alastorâs tentacles, was soaked in fluidsâa testament to the relentless climaxes in such a short span. The fluids lubricated the tentaclesâ chaotic movements, echoing with wet sounds. Perhaps it was the deeper peaks heâd hit along the way, but Lucifer found himself climaxing more easily now. The waves of pleasure stayed high, never subsiding. A mere nudge against his sensitive flesh brought him teetering to the edge again.
He hadnât known how humiliating it could be to lose control of his own body.
âYouâre cruel, ascending to heaven alone,â Alastor quipped.
Lucifer tried to shift, to lessen the onslaught, but Alastor saw through it instantly, targeting his prostate with even greater force.
Each scrape of the tentacle against his inner walls brought shallow climaxes, melting his mind with sweet numbness. The relentless pleasure pummeled his senses. He tensed to resist, but the stimulation was too much. The more he fought, the deeper the climax that followed.
His voice broke into desperate, high-pitched cries as another wave hit. âYouâre too adorable,â Alastor said, irritation creeping into his tone. âShall I finish you off?â
With that declaration, the tentaclesâ movements shifted dramatically. A new one emerged, pressing his abdomen from the outside, pinning his insides in place. His prostate trapped, the tentacles rubbed harder, more thoroughly. The pressure stole his breath, but the pleasure overwhelmed it entirely.
âStopâIâmâ!â His cries grew frantic, disjointed. âAlastorâstopâI donât wantâwaitâIâll say itâpleaseâstopâ!â
For a fleeting moment, Lilith and a young Charlie flashed in his mindâsymbols of past happiness. Then darkness.
âSorryâŠâ he whispered, to no one in particular.
Alastor took his hand, smiling gently. âDonât think.â
A shattering climax pulled him under. His legs stiffened, sweat beading like pearls. When his eyes fluttered open, he was thrust back into a hell of pleasure, intoxicated by an even deeper peak.
Tears spilled from his eyes.
He despaired at his own wretchednessâusing a fleeting memory of his beloved family as fodder for momentary bliss. Miserable, pitiful, blissful⊠and so terribly good.
âSurrender to me.â
Alastorâs sweet whisper reached him as he weighed his precious memories against this fleeting ecstasy.
Once the dam broke, there was no hesitation left. He just wanted to feel good, to think of nothing. And the man before him could make that happen.
Alastor kissed him lightly again, speaking softly. âRepeat: âAl, please put it in.ââ
He tugged at Luciferâs tongue, toying with his open mouth. âSay it.â
âAl⊠put⊠itâŠâ The words spilled from Lucifer like a delirious murmur, following Alastorâs lead.
âWell, well! I thought youâd hold out longer, stubborn as you are,â Alastor purred, pleased. âYou were good at begging even back then. Honesty suits you.â
Heâd driven Lucifer to this, but hearing him plead directly sent a satisfied rumble through Alastorâs throat.
The tentacle slid out with a wet sound, leaving Luciferâs flesh twitching with longing. âNow, letâs feel good together.â
Slowly, Alastorâs erection replaced the tentacle, easing into Luciferâs needy entrance. His gentle, deliberate pace frustrated Lucifer, who rocked his hips impatiently. As his mouth opened and closed, Alastor drew closer.
âBy the way, your rewardâs overdue.â
The deep kiss Lucifer had craved after endless teasing finally came. He entangled his tongue with Alastorâs, euphoria washing over him. A faint taste of blood mingled with the intensityâoverwhelming, yet he felt utterly pampered. This dizzying sensation was something he adored.
Gasping as the kiss broke, he pleaded, âWaitâI want moreâit feels so goodââ
He surrendered to the pleasure fully now. Alastor narrowed his eyes, savoring the sight. He loved watching Luciferâs rationality melt away, consumed by wanton desire.
âSorry, AlastorâI canâtâagainâ!â he cried, lost in the haze.
âGo ahead,â Alastor whispered. âIâll ruin you until youâre satisfied. See? Itâs incredible, isnât it?â
âAlastorâwaitâIâmâitâs coming againâ!â His body moved on its own, chasing the deepening waves. âSo goodâstopâanother deep oneâI canâtâ!â
Alastor trembled with delight.
The King of Hell, feared by all, moaned lewdly, taking him in.
Luciferâs legs stiffened as another climax knocked him out cold. Alastor nudged him awake with a gentle thrustâeven such mild stimulation would be overwhelming now.
Waking with a jolt, he trembled violently. When Alastor laced their fingers together, Lucifer let out a pathetic cry and climaxed again. At this height, anything could push him over.
âHow much more will you taunt me?â he whimpered.
Alastorâs desiresâdominance, conquestâwere sated. The thrill and the sensation within Lucifer stoked Alastorâs own release.
Iâve exposed and fulfilled every part of you, he thought.
Tears streamed from Luciferâs eyes, his golden lashes quivering. Alastor stroked his head, kissing him tenderly to convey his love.
Lucifer was precious to him. Thatâs why Alastor wanted to break him, to make him yield. His overwhelming strength had grated on Alastor. Thatâs why he wanted to be gentler than anyone.
âYouâre mine alone.â
Lucifer smiled faintly in responseânot from understanding, but because, in his pleasure-drowned haze, he mirrored the smile of the man before him. Alastor knew this.
Yet it felt as if Lucifer had accepted his fierce love, and Alastorâs body shivered with joy.
As he resumed, Lucifer shuddered in his arms, climaxing repeatedly. His eyes lost focus, teetering on the edge of oblivion. Alastor, nearing his own limit, gripped Luciferâs slender waist for a final push. His pale neck came into view, sweat glistening on his nape. Alastor traced it slowly with his tongue, eliciting a shiver.
Their melted gazes met for a moment.
Both craved itâthe moment of ecstasy. After a breath, Alastor sank his teeth into Luciferâs neck without mercy.
A guttural cry tore from Lucifer as his deepest climax yet seized him, his insides clenching tight. Straining against Luciferâs pulsing walls, Alastor savored the golden blood filling his mouth.
Like sipping a fine apple-scented wine, he released deep within Lucifer.
*
When Luciferâs legs gave out, Alastor tended to him with surprising diligence. Wiping his fluid-drenched body with a towel, he hummed cheerfully. Lucifer accepted the care, his mind still sluggish from the afterglow.
It was too practiced for a whimâlikely part of Alastorâs routine. Lucifer didnât want to know.
âThank you for the rare experience,â Alastor said. âI took your first, in a way.â
âIâm not a virgin,â Lucifer retorted.
âNot like thatâsomething more abstract,â Alastor clarified, pulling him into a tight embrace. âI wanted you to accept my love, etched into your body. Only I get to break you, devour you, love you, own you.â
âQuite the passionate confession,â Lucifer grumbled. âMy hips are wrecked.â
âIâm more smitten than you realize,â Alastor replied, kissing him lightly. âBut keep this between usâespecially from my past self.â
âWhy? Time paradoxes?â
âNo,â Alastor whispered, grinning. âThe old me would never admit heâs this obsessed with you.â
He flashed his usual theatrical grinâthe Alastor Lucifer knew so well.
*
âAlastor?â
Lucifer mustâve drifted off. Waking on the bed, his body ached, and Alastor was gone. His time in the past had expired.
That damned magicâutterly useless, really. A grandiose spell with little practical value, fit only for gawking at unchangeable memories. A loserâs solace, Lucifer had always thought. Yet Alastor had used it to leave an indelible mark.
Donât forget my love.
His obsession was staggering.
And Lucifer had a shrewd guess about whoâd enabled this farce with that wretched magic. Furious, he grabbed a rubber duck from the floor and flung it at the wall. A cute quack echoed through the room.
âDamn itâŠâ
It wasnât unprecedented. Heâd once indulged in quirky roleplay with Lilith for excitementâs sake. But being dragged into someone elseâs game? This was infuriating.
âUsing my past self as a spice for your pleasure,â he muttered. âSomeone out there has atrocious taste.â
Even if that future came to pass, it felt far offâfor now.
âWell, Iâve got time,â he sighed, sipping the cold tea Alastor had left behind, his thoughts drifting to a distant tomorrow.