7:53-
I kinda wanna talk a little bit more about myself every now and then. So, let’s see.
What have we talked about last time? You know I say that but last time I talked a little bit about myself, and then I ended up talking about an hour about Sushi. That wasn’t really about me. That was more about sushi. Hopefully, I won’t get too off-track this time. But the thing is, talking about sushi is talking about me because I like sushi a lot. So, it’s, that’s not that far off.
Okay, let’s see. Sushi and we talked about Japan. We can talk more about Japan, why not?
So, when I was really young, I was in Japan. From, as early as I can remember, I was born in ah…I was in Japan and then I moved to Australia when I was young. And I went to elementary school, primary school in Australia. But every time anyone asked where I was from, I just tell them that I was from Japan cuz all I knew was about Japan. I didn’t know about Australian stuff that well. Yeah.
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I would try to tell my friends about Sushi and stuff, but they didn’t really understand. I tried to teach them about じゃんけん but I didn’t know what じゃんけん was in English. I only knew じゃんけん… じゃんけん is like Rock Paper Scissors, or in Australia we say Scissor, Paper, Rock.
And stuff like that. I didn’t… It was kind of difficult to fit in in primary school a little bit.
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But then again, I don’t even remember what it was in like in Japan. I guess I went to a…I guess it’s called a, like a daycare? I went to daycare when I was in Japan when I was little babby (baby). I don’t remember that well. One thing I remember is…there was a Japanese girl there and I guess we were in the same class or I don’t know what you call it. I don’t know, wasn’t a daycare…? What’s 保育園(ho-i-ku-en)? 保育園 is daycare, right? Yeah. I was in 保育園 in Japan, and a girl there, she bit my hand. I don’t know why that happened but she bit my hand and it bled. And I had a baby bleeding hand. And I actually, I still have a little scar on my hand where the bite was. And it’s still there even after a long long time. That’s one thing I remember because I have a physical reminder of it on me.
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Wow, damn. The chat just…did you see the chat just fly past that for a sec? Wow. Yeah. It’s crazy I didn’t think that such a small girl could leave such a deep bite that would leave a mark there for such a long time.
Is it just me or is my body lagging today?
Sorry guys just give me a second I’m gonna check something. It’s gonna disappear for a second. Where did I go? Okay, one-second guys, one second.
50:35-
How about the most recent time I went to Japan, I guess? Yeah. I think I went to yakiniku maybe three times last time I went with my family who lives there. I just flu there by myself and went to visit my family. And we had osushi and had yakiniku. And we ordered the most high fat ratio fatty wagyu. We had the good stuff, the kalbi. Yakiniku, and it was good. I’m talking about food again! I gotta get away from this! See, I said I was gonna talk about Japan, but Japan equals food. So I just talked about food again.
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What else did I do there? I don’t know. I kinda just chilled?
他に何をしたっけ?
分からない。ただゆっくりしてた感じ?
51:40-
We went on a big road trip to the countryside to see my uncle’s parents, to his 実家, his home town and I saw Mt.Fuji on the way there, and it was pretty. Yeah.
叔父の両親に会いに田舎にある叔父の実家まで遠出した
行く途中で富士山が見えたよ、綺麗だった。
52:05-
What else did we do there? We kind of just chilled out and had family New Years in Japan. Yeah.
そこでは他に何をしたっけな?
ただゆっくりして家族でお正月を過ごしたんだ、日本で。うん
Hmm..え?
It wasn’t that long ago but I don’t remember what happened! What? え?
There’s also a limit to how much I can say, how much I’m allowed to say, you know what I mean?
Hmm?
52:35-
Yeah, I went to visit my friends in Japan that I haven’t seen for a while. Yeah.
What did we do? We played Smash Brothers.
うん、しばらく会えてなかった日本にいる友達にも会いに行ったよ
何したかって?スマブラやったかな
52:46-
I went to my friend’s house, we played Smash Brothers. And we went to Akihabara. Yeah.
友達の家に行ってスマブラやった
それで秋葉原に行った。うん。
Ah…
52:59-
Ah… yeah yeah okay okay, so…
Ah…
んー
Oh man…where do I even begin?
う〜ん、どこから話せばいいかな
53:00-
So, there was a, there was a point in my life where, I was in Japan, and ah, I had nowhere to go.
I didn’t have a, I didn’t have any place to sleep.
This is kind of a weird story I can’t get too in to it. Weird.
Ah, and ah… I stayed at his place for a while, and ah, just, while I was looking for a job, I went to Akihabara every day. Ah, and ah, I would just um, sit on my laptop and look for jobs in Japan. And ah, in my free time, I just wander around Akihabara every day. And I used like… the Yodobashi Camera in Akihabara and I used to like ah, just kill time there while I was waiting for replies for job applications and I would just, like I would just kill time in there and look at all the figures and stuff that they have there and I like played, played the keyboards on display. I just like sit there for like, an hour, practicing piano on the display keyboards, and one time a guy told me to stop so I had to stop doing that.
Ah, and then I would like, play the, they had a WiiU on display, like a demonstration there, and I would just play the Smash Brothers, the demo version that they had there. I just played that, like every day for a while, and ah. It’s, there’s two controllers on the demo and I would kinda just hog one of the controllers and play the computers until someone was brave enough to pick up the controller, the other controller and 1V1 me.
And one time, an Australian guy came by me and picked up the controller and was like “Ah, G’day mate, how’s it going?” “Oh, you’re from Australia” and the, he wasn’t that good at the game. He hadn’t played it that much before. And we sort of just played Smash Bros for a while there, and he was very excited about it. It was his first time in Japan, and he was like really excited to meet a fellow Aussie. And I kicked his butt in Smash Bros. It was really weird, he wanted to take a photo with me. It’s kinda weird but I was like yeah you know, why not? He’s like “Alright mate, let’s say cheese, yeah” Yeah, that was fun. I hope that guy is doing well.
56:21-
Yeah, so… I was kind of living like a bum in Akihabara for a little while there until I got a job. And then I was able to get a place to sleep again. Ah, but what I mean by that is that I had a little fight with my family. I wasn’t allowed to sleep with them for a little while. Yeah. Ah… so yeah that happened. That was a rough time. But it was okay in the end. Yeah, I’m forever in debt to my friend that let me stay with him. Yeah. Ah…
57:00-
Talk about Australia? I don’t know what to say! What is there to talk about Australia? I don’t know. It’s a nice country. It’s really easy to live in. Quality of living is good in Australia, yeah.
57:33-
Okay, basically I was in Japan staying with my family for a while. But I was…okay let me see. I was supposed to get a job but partially because I was really lazy, and partially because I was really scared to get a job, I just kept like dodging it for a while, and they got mad at me and said you can’t stay here, so I had to leave. Something like that. It was scary and I was really anxious about getting a job. And it was hard but eventually I came around, I guess I got to do it, and so I got a job and I was allowed back in. Something like that.
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It was so nerve-wracking. When I was at that job in Japan, you know, I didn’t know what to say to anyone. My Japanese wasn’t as good as it was as it is right now, and you know, even if it was in English, I’m really bad at speaking to people. I don’t know. You know, it’s hard to like, go out and do a job interview and talk to people and maintain a good relationship. It’s really challenging for me.
58:55-
But yeah, I had to do the right thing so I did it, yeah. Even uh…What am I trying to say here… like uh… My uh… I’m not even that good at speaking to people in general, so speaking to strangers in Japanese can be really difficult. I feel like I’m a little bit better these days, but I was really bad a little while ago. I was really, really bad. I would like…I would, yeah… I would shake and cry and stuff like that. Or curl up into a ball (if) I had to speak to people. It was pretty bad at one point though, but I’m a lot better now.
59:51-
So…yeah it was difficult. Especially in a different language, but I sort of like, I think being put in that sort of situation, sort of gave me the motivation I guess? to start bettering myself a bit more. So, I think I’m doing a lot better off these days than I was back then.
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It was pretty bad. My ah… when I was staying with my family, my uncle bought a book, it was like, bought a Japanese book like, how to cure 引きこもり. And he was like, calling my mom in Australia about it, like, you should check this out. It was pretty embarrassing.
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I was a real burden on my family in Japan at that time. I feel really bad about it. And I still feel like I still need to repay them in some way, I don’t know. One day, one day. Yeah, I’m forever in the debt of my friend in Japan. He really helped me a lot.
1:01:38-
I feel like, I knew that I kinda wanted to share more about myself but maybe, I feel like I might be oversharing and making some people uncomfortable, I don’t know. Hmmm…
This, uh… this might be too much for some people. I don’t wanna make anyone sad talking about this sad stuff. I’m better now, It’s okay now. I’m doing very well now. Well, yeah it was pretty bad for a while there. I don’t know.
Honestly, even now I’m still pretty bad sometimes. Depending on the occasion, like in crowds and something like that I’m not very good if there’s a lot of people in one place, I’m not very good.
If I’m expected to talk to them like a wedding. I was invited to my cousin’s wedding a few months ago, and there was a lot of people there. I don’t know, you’re kind of expected to mingle with them, I was kind of freaking out a little bit. My sister was there and she kind of helped me out a little bit and comfort me. Hmm.
1:02:51-
Yeah, so…
Basically, what I was trying to say is I’m not very good at like, socializing and communicating so I apologize for like, uh…make anyone uncomfortable if I like don’t know what to say or something like that. Sorry. I need to get away from this topic, just cuz… I’m just gonna get into a loop of depressing topics if I don’t away from this.
Something happy. Happy happy, ah…NIJISANJI has been making me happy lately. I’ve been having such a good time even today. I had a really good time in the Minecraft server and working with everyone.
And, guys tomorrow we’re playing APEX with Selen. I can’t wait. Selen’s really nice and she’s funny and I hope that we can have a good time together tomorrow.
I wanna get better at APEX. I gotta make Selen proud.